I was fuming.
Smoke emitting from my ears.
Teeth clinched. Eyes narrowed.
I have confessed that I can be “ugly” – well, ugly was rearing its…ugly head. (There’s no better way to say that.)
Allow me to assure you that if I were a two year old I would have stomped through the family room, thrown myself on the floor and had myself a little on the spot hissy fit.
And no, I am not talking about something that occurred “recently” I am talking about something that occurred…yesterday.
Aaargghh.
Then I heard my own words float through my head, Be The Mom, Chapter Three – Me Mom Trap, something about when the word “I” is muttered a lot I am trapped, wanting my own way, with a very bad attitude and need to snap out it.
Nice advice.
However, I did not want to adjust my ugly attitude.
I wanted to wallow in my ugly attitude.
Heavy sigh.
I battled for a bit, many minutes…too many minutes.
I heard the familiar whisper, the ugly was being challenged by the Holy. I quietly started reciting various Bible verses, then I had a little discussion with God, then I pulled out my Bible and read a bit. Then I prayed. Then I told my selfish little self to simmer down and recognize that I do not always get my way.
Dang…life is hard.
Yes, the rest of my day sure was a lot better…when I let go of ugly me and clung to the Holy One.
Life is a series of small choices, those choices mold us and because we are moms they mold our children.
This I will remember today…Thanks
Tracey, thank you for your transparency! I listened to you on Focus on the Family and loved your interview. It was very encouraging to me as a mom of four little ones. The part about folding towels really hit me, and I was reminded to rely on the Holy Spirit in my mothering. Thank you also for commenting on my blog and putting my post on your facebook page when I first started my blog. I was still figuring out the technological side of blogging (still am :)) thing and I never responded, so THANK YOU for your encouraging words. Blessings! Looking forward to reading your book!
It’s refreshing to read the words of another “real” mom living through the small everyday struggles! Thank you! I “liked” the Pine Cove & Be the Mom Facebook pages and followed Pine Cove & Momblog on Twitter (@247mama).